As I walked into the Gynae unit I saw lots of ladies coming out with the brightly coloured folders you get when you have had your 12 week scan, which I am sure just contain bits of paperwork but at that moment all I wanted was one of those folders, it felt like a big siren saying “I have a folder , I am pregnant ner ner ner !” Which it totally was not but at the time it felt that way . Every time I go in I feel deflated turning left instead of right but this is the journey that has been chosen for us.
I went to the scan alone as hubby had to work, he felt really bad but I understand , he wont be able to make every appointment he needs to earn a living to pay for our future ! As long as he is around for the vital ones, as there are certain things that cannot take place without him if you catch my drift ! He is also away on business twice this month so lets hope all the dates line up !
I always get a bit nervous when I have an internal, I think its a deeper issue from when I had the internal scan and they couldn’t find the heartbeat for bubba number 1 and I passed out . So now I make sure I am prepared, I wear layers and strip right down! Luckily the Dr understands.
Dr Z started the scan, she advised that my womb lining had thickened to 4.2mm from 1.8mm however the desired thickness is at least 8mm. She explained that this is still due to the two procedures I had when I had my two miscarriages. Dr Z also said that I still had a really good amount of follicles on each ovary and I had recently ovulated from my left side. Dr Z advised that we should wait two weeks and see if I have a period, if no period I do a pregnancy test as she said there is no reason I could not be pregnant , the only risk would be the lining still too thin for the embryo to take. If the pregnancy test is negative and I still have not had a period I need to take a 5 day course of tablets which will give a withdrawal bleed, I then make an appointment and go in to start the IVF medication which consists of tablets for 3 days and then 10-12 days worth of self administered injections and after that we then go in and see if the meds have made the follicles even juicier and an appointment is made for egg retrieval. I did have to ask her to repeat this 3 times as wanted to make sure I got it right ! In my head its two weeks, two weeks then either way we have progress.
Of course in everyone’s eyes if I were pregnant that would be the best outcome, in my head I am so nervous of this, what if I am and there is more chromosomal issues. At least with IVF , whilst there is a risk of miscarriage you know the embryos they are putting in are all ok. Its crazy the way your mind works after one miscarriage let alone two.
So we wait, but hey its what we are used to .
Searching for a positive 