I woke up feeling quite nervous this morning. I think the thought of injecting myself scares me, the thought of putting my body through a month or so of hormones scares me, the embryo not taking scares me, the possibility of miscarrying again scares me. I am having a big fat scaredy cat day which is not like me at all ! I think the pressure of letting everyone down again if I miscarry is weighing on my mind a lot .
We arrived at the ACU and met our fertility nurse, lets call her Nurse L, when we sat down I asked her if there was an option to have PGD testing. Pre-implantation genetic diagnosis is where the embryos are tested prior to transfer to check for chromosome issues. There are two common misconceptions with IVF, the first is that it guarantees pregnancy- it doesn’t , you have the same odds as falling pregnant naturally and the second misconception is that you will have a “normal” baby which again is not true. The embryos are graded and they will only put the best looking in but this doesn’t tell us if the embryo has any chromosome issues such as downs syndrome etc. Some private clincs offer PGD and I had hoped we could pay the ACU to do it but Nurse L advised that its not something they have the facilities for and if we wanted it done we would have to pay for the whole thing privately. After having two miscarriages and finding out the second was down to chromosome abnormalities this is something we were hoping we could have. Anyway it is what it is and we have to be positive. Hubby was a deflated when we found this out, I think he is so worried about me putting my body through so much again for potentially more heart break but we must not think like that !
Nurse L showed me how to draw up the medication and inject myself, all pretty straight forward and no side effects as of yet.
We had my 9 year old cousin over for a sleepover and movie and we watched Storks, its an animated movie about a baby delivery service and was quite touching, if only it were that easy, write a letter , get a baby delivered. It was quite fitting for the moment, kids movies have such a lovely undertone and I shed a tear at the end !
We will get our delivery!
I will update after my first self administered injection!
Scaredy cat signing off !
Searching for a positive 