I have just about recovered from our party, it was such a great time and I was so blessed to be with all my best friends, drinking bubbles and dancing. These girls get me and I would be lost without them, each of them in their own way is a major support from a little emoji text, to a hug saying you got this it all makes the difference.
I had a blood test yesterday to check the FSH levels, I had to be at the hospital for 730am so a yawny start for me!
Nurse L called me at lunchtime to advise my hormone levels were borderline so if I could double the concentration of the FSH injection, she advised that due to my age and egg reserve they was always going to start me on the lower dose as they did not want to over stimulate straight away. I feel ok about it , I do not see it as a negative just a booster is needed.
Hubby went away for business on Monday and I felt quite vulnerable this time around, I think because he has been doing the injections for me plus the hormones have been making me extra sensitive! I cried at a TV advert yesterday!
I did my injections on my own for the first time and got in such a tizz, the dogs were sat right beside me like my cheerleaders . I mucked up the needles and got in a right state ! I took a moment and did it slowly , step by step.
The next day hubby skyped me and watched me do it, he is such an encouragement and my absolute rock. I felt more confident then! My mum came over the next day and was there to help too , I think she got a bit upset, it must be hard for her to see me going through all this, she was utterly broken by the two miscarriages, she said its her one job to protect her children and felt so helpless. When you go through this you forget how it impacts those around you.
When I had to double dose my sister in law was here, I again am lucky to have such a great relationship with her, she watched me do the injections and said how brave I was which was just what I needed !
I had not had any extra side effects of the FSH until last night, my head was pounding and I have felt so sick since last night. Lets hope its practice for morning sickness
This time last year I was pregnant which means the anniversary of us losing Jelly Bean is approaching. I cannot help but reflect but am trying to not let my brain tell me its going to happen again and that this is 3rd time lucky! You just got to keep swimming….
Scan is booked for Monday.
Have a lovely weekend
Searching for a positive 