Scan day again and we were feeling really positive, I had been getting quite a bit of pain where my ovaries are and lower back pain which I had hoped were good signs.
Arrived at the hospital and it was Nurse L th
at was going to be scanning us, I had not seen her for a couple weeks as she had been on leave . God was she grumpy today ! She asked hubby to write down the measurements of the follicles as she called them off as there were supposed to be two of them in the room but staff shortages meant that the other nurse had to go help another patient. I took all my energy not to ask her what her problem was! I think sometimes Nurses and Doctors forget that we are human this means a lot to us, to them I know they have to be clinical but geez some bedside manner would be nice love !
She started with the womb lining, 5.3mm, I immediately knew that this was still too thin, it had thickened since the Monday (4mm) but had to reach 6. When I commented on the womb lining she said “did they talk to you about your womb lining?” and I told her they had not and she did not say a word ! The vagueness drives me crazy! The right ovary had 10 follicles which was an increase from the 4 on Monday and the left had 10 which was an increase from the 6 on Monday so I have double the amount of follicles however the new ones need to grow some more to make them viable to potentially have an egg in and the older ones need a bit more of a spurt. I am really happy with the amount of follicles however its about quality not quantity so am hoping for some good eggs to be retrieved. Nurse L said we were not quite ready for egg collection Friday and to come back Friday for another scan and plan for collection Monday. I asked for more meds as we had ran out of the FSH medication which she grumpily gave me and I also asked for a new sharps bin as ours was full up and she said they did not have any and to put the needles in a plastic container and then transfer to their sharps bin on Friday, lovely!
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We left and I was a bit upset, I felt totally deflated, I had in my head Friday for egg collection and was so positive and focused on Friday that the wind was completely taken out of my sails. Hubby tried to cheer me up and even stopped off at the golden arches on the way home and got me a Sausage McMuffin ! I think I was running on auto pilot, I have not been sleeping well and felt like everything had hit me at once. I said to hubby I feel like a snowman whose body has melted and head is just about in tact.
Hubby put me on the sofa with a duvet , a packet of choccy biscuits, our two puppies and the Kardashians on TV. I spent the rest of the day snoozing and desperately trying to keep searching for the positive, I understand that this is by no means a big step back and just a little delay but I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to tick every box and I am coming to realise that the IVF journey is anything but a standard process!
Until Friday….
Searching for a positive 